In Progress…
I’ve got a couple new projects on my needles right now and very happy about how they’ve turned out up until now.
I’ve been to London last October and somehow was inspired to knit a comforter shawl in white for myself. I don’t know exactly how that idea came into my mind, but I like knitting and I like a comfy shawl, so…
I could not start the shawl right after I came home, because a new semester started and I had to concentrate on my studies. But I have some free time now, so I decided to cast on for my shawl. It’s already 80% done and so far, I’m really happy with this project.
I’ve been knitting this shawl while listening to the audiobook of Sense and Sensibility from Jane Austen. I love listening to audiobooks while knitting, but I have to get some new ones soon, I guess.
So the next project is the Kinetic Shawl from Knitty.com. It’s so interesting to knit after this chart, I like it so much!! I’m not sure about the color of my yarn though… but it’s soft and warm.
But I’m concentrating on the Ms. Dashwood Shawl right now, so I put this project on hold until I finished the shawl. I hope I will be finished with both before my departure to Japan in mid-March!
What to do…
… I haven’t blogged for such a long time now… A lot of things happened after I came back to Germany and I couldn’t find time to do some rambling…
What to do… when you have a long-distance relationship with someone you met only a month before you left the country?
Luckily I’m a very optimistic person. I’m very optimistic that my relationship will last, despite the distance (Japan-Germany is quite apart…). But still, there are times when I feel insecure. Especially because we mainly communicate through emails, there are or will be a lot of misunderstandings. It’s not so easy to tell your feelings with just an email. Communicating also depends on the tone of voice, thus a lot of emails can be misunderstood. This causes me a lot of trouble and I usually reread all my emails at least twice, since we always communicate in English and this is not my mother tongue. So I’m usually insecure, whether this expression is right, or maybe too direct or maybe too vague, etc. Writing an email takes me up to five minutes…
I am a person, who likes to talk about a lot of things that happened in my daily life. And talking about stuff like that to my boyfriend always seemed to be an important part of our daily communication. But somehow though, I think that he might not be that interested in listening to things like that… who I met that day… what happened in class at university… Maybe guys are just not interested in talking about daily matters? Maybe it’s only interesting for girls?
Sometimes I think, guys only want to talk about things that are really important in exactly that moment. I mean… girls can talk from one thing to a thousand things, right? Well, I guess it’s different with guys.
When we talk, I always have the feeling that I talk a lot more than him. I don’t know whether that’s good or not. And usually he does not respond to what I’ve said, but changes the topics a lot… to things that interest him. Now, does that show that he’s totally not interested in what I’m saying? Or rather that he listened but doesn’t have anything to say about it, so he changes the topic? Actually, I could imagine both. But either way, everyone would like to have at least a little bit of a reaction to what you’ve said, right? Hm, am I the only one hoping for some kind of reaction?
Especially when I want to talk about something that troubles my mind or complaining about something. He’s very quick about changing the topic then. Maybe it’s his way of comforting me. Well, if it is… then it’s an extremely bad way of comforting. Aren’t relationships also about comforting your partner when he’s down?
I know that I always try to respond to everything he says, by asking questions or making comments. But I don’t know how helpful, comforting etc. that is. How should I know? Would he tell me, if I asked?
Sometimes I think, I can’t talk about problems with him (not that any real problems have occurred yet, but just in case there is one). He would change the topic again, wouldn’t he? If I can’t talk about something that troubles me with my boyfriend, who should I talk with then? Wouldn’t it be weird, if I always talked with my friends, but never with him?
What to do?
A lot of questions and a lot to think about on a lonely Friday night.
